With Jackson it was much different. First he is a completely different person than Jacey. He let me know right off the bat that he was going to be calling the shots and I had to gently mold him to avoid wrath! My regrets from my first-born helped me to just let him be and laugh, rather than stress out about the next milestone. So now instead of a loose tooth being exciting, it is heart breaking. I know that a season is ending and I will never have it back. The days are fast approaching when the baby fat will fade, his smile will change, his chubby hands and feet which I love so much will become bigger and stronger. God forbid the day will come when he doesn't want to hug and kiss me and I am no longer the prettiest woman in his life. Don't get me wrong I know I will celebrate all the great things that happen to him and the man he will become, but it will hurt when I am not the one he wants to marry anymore. :)
This blog really did not have much of a purpose...just a mother's mourning. Probably not rational, but painful nonetheless!

1 comment:
okay... that first picture at the end of the blog was hilarious :) awww... jack's growing up!
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